Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Pssh... eat? Who needs food?
ug. THAT thing.
It's evil ploy to destroy you is slowing creeping up at a pace that should scare even the boogie man.
Dun dun dunnnnnnnnn
Yup, those doctors office scales scare the heck out of me. Last year around this time, I loved them. That's cause last year around this time I weighed a lot less than I do now.
It's true, I gained a lot of weight once I started eating again.
Well since ya already know now, I might as well tell you.
Ya ever heard of those unhealthy diets teenagers go on cause they want to lose weight?
In my defense I only got down to the recommended weight for my height. The weight determined by the government.
I had to starve myself to get there? That's not cool.
During the time of my crash diet I only ate around 600 or so calories a day. And that's a very high guess. I say this because I monitored it. Every single thing I ate had to be under 100 calories, except dinner, which I allowed 200. I weighed myself well over 10 times a day. And cried if I gained 2 pounds from 5:45 in the morning to 9 at night. I lost around 17 pounds to be the "normal" weight for girls my height.
I lost almost all of my muscle mass and my swimming was going downhill.
I got pneumonia. (Which probably wasn't related to not eating, but it sure would've helped me fight it off if my body actually had some weight on it)
One of my close friends didn't recognize me.
And so much more.....
Did I look unhealthy?
To parents, yes.
To teens, no.
All because of a messed up vision the government gave me on how I'm supposed to weigh.
Does the government really want me to starve myself so I can be the correct weight?
For any of you that have seen or met my mother, I was eating less than her.
For any of you who haven't, she's a stick. Skinny as anything. She doesn't eat much, because she's not hungry.
But I was working out 5 days a week on intense training for 2 hours with almost no food in my body.
Call that healthy?
Since when is starvation cool?
I thought we tried to avoid it.
I guess I was wrong.
But I can tell you one thing,
I'm not going back.
Posted by Tia at 4:44 AM
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